Post by cherokeemaiden on Oct 22, 2012 15:31:15 GMT -6
I'm completely new to this but I haven't been able to find much online and Im not sure where else to start, so here goes!
I am half Cherokee. My grandmother, who was full, knew a lot, I believe about traditions and rituals. As a quick background, I am 25 years old and married with a son. Since I can remember, and before even, I have experienced things that many people don't. I have seen, heard, felt, dreamt about, you name it, spirits. I do not like using the word "ghosts" because many do not believe but I am unsure of what else to make of it. I am a skeptic of many things, but I know what I have gone through. It began in my childhood home, and it seems to follow me wherever I move. I, along with those around me, experience sighting, things moving, doors shaking, voices, and many other things- so I do not believe I am crazy. My dreams are very vivid. I have had dreams come true, I have shared a dream with my husband. I can even become aware I am dreaming and control it. I have had dreams inside of dreams, lucid, as well. I promise there is a point to all of this. In my dreams, I often dream about typical things, such as tornadoes, kidnappings, or just random things. But I have strong spiritual dreams as well. As though someone is trying to take over my body. Something very, very bad. I can feel it coming up behind me. It isn't a physical being, it is invisible, but I can feel it in my dreams. I always pray until it goes away, but it gets so close to me. I have had dreams of the end of the world. And the part that scares me is not how it ends, but after. There are no rules after, and the dead is walking again. It wants to take over those still alive. It is always a fight between good and evil. And I am always on the front lines, or they try to use me as a pawn, as though they need me.
Things happen to me in every home I live in. It began affecting my son when he was very young as well. We have set up cameras, I have said prayers, I do not know what else to do. I can feel a presence at some times, so strong, that it fills the room with a feeling of fullness. It sounds as though a tv is on somewhere, the static, and ringing, even sometimes a pressure change. I have always been this way. Now I have moved into a new house and things are beginning again.
I used to be very close to my grandmother growing up, before she died. She spoke the language fluently and I was always very sad that I was not otherwise brought up in the culture, being a product of divorce. I would tell her of the things I saw, dreamt about, heard, anything that was happening to me and she was the only one who truly listened. She would tell me she saw shadow people, one thing I do not remember ever seeing. Years later, my mother told me that she picked me up from her house and found out that my grandmother performed some sort of ritual on me, something about rubbing a chicken foot on my body, or my foot? I am unsure, as I do not remember any of this. My husband jokingly says he believes she made me a shaman, which seems cartoony or video game like to me. I do not know much about this stuff. All I know is that I never had the chance to ask her about what it meant. Did it cause these things to happen me or was it meant to help me?
I am at a dead end and am unsure as to where to go now. I have always been very intuned with my body, and I know what I feel, see and hear is real. I want it to stop and in the process, find out what that meant when my grandmother did it. Hope you guys can help!
I am half Cherokee. My grandmother, who was full, knew a lot, I believe about traditions and rituals. As a quick background, I am 25 years old and married with a son. Since I can remember, and before even, I have experienced things that many people don't. I have seen, heard, felt, dreamt about, you name it, spirits. I do not like using the word "ghosts" because many do not believe but I am unsure of what else to make of it. I am a skeptic of many things, but I know what I have gone through. It began in my childhood home, and it seems to follow me wherever I move. I, along with those around me, experience sighting, things moving, doors shaking, voices, and many other things- so I do not believe I am crazy. My dreams are very vivid. I have had dreams come true, I have shared a dream with my husband. I can even become aware I am dreaming and control it. I have had dreams inside of dreams, lucid, as well. I promise there is a point to all of this. In my dreams, I often dream about typical things, such as tornadoes, kidnappings, or just random things. But I have strong spiritual dreams as well. As though someone is trying to take over my body. Something very, very bad. I can feel it coming up behind me. It isn't a physical being, it is invisible, but I can feel it in my dreams. I always pray until it goes away, but it gets so close to me. I have had dreams of the end of the world. And the part that scares me is not how it ends, but after. There are no rules after, and the dead is walking again. It wants to take over those still alive. It is always a fight between good and evil. And I am always on the front lines, or they try to use me as a pawn, as though they need me.
Things happen to me in every home I live in. It began affecting my son when he was very young as well. We have set up cameras, I have said prayers, I do not know what else to do. I can feel a presence at some times, so strong, that it fills the room with a feeling of fullness. It sounds as though a tv is on somewhere, the static, and ringing, even sometimes a pressure change. I have always been this way. Now I have moved into a new house and things are beginning again.
I used to be very close to my grandmother growing up, before she died. She spoke the language fluently and I was always very sad that I was not otherwise brought up in the culture, being a product of divorce. I would tell her of the things I saw, dreamt about, heard, anything that was happening to me and she was the only one who truly listened. She would tell me she saw shadow people, one thing I do not remember ever seeing. Years later, my mother told me that she picked me up from her house and found out that my grandmother performed some sort of ritual on me, something about rubbing a chicken foot on my body, or my foot? I am unsure, as I do not remember any of this. My husband jokingly says he believes she made me a shaman, which seems cartoony or video game like to me. I do not know much about this stuff. All I know is that I never had the chance to ask her about what it meant. Did it cause these things to happen me or was it meant to help me?
I am at a dead end and am unsure as to where to go now. I have always been very intuned with my body, and I know what I feel, see and hear is real. I want it to stop and in the process, find out what that meant when my grandmother did it. Hope you guys can help!